Post AidilAdha

this is in the middle of the examination week. i have just completed one paper out of five. four more to go starting this monday.

everybody is stressed up. no one likes this atmosphere in UTP. people are sleeping late, cursing at those lengthy lecture slides and books. filling the library from morning till late night.

suddenly, i realized that i only have one more week left. one more week before i will embark on a 10 months hiatus that will see me venture into a new environment.

am i ready for it? do i have what it takes to be there? what if things goes wrong? those questions started to take away my focus in studying.

face it, in a week's time, i will be ending this semester and started to see the life of a working adults. FYI, i am just 20 years old. i shouldn't be working on a daily basis at an office. god, time really flies. now i feel afraid of the new environment. what if i made a mess in my internship?

btw, i wont be seeing most of my friends and teammates anymore. after my internship program, they would be leaving for their internship already until the end of my ungrad studies. now, that is more depressing. not able to see them anymore due to this is more depressing. its gonna be a very long time until i met them again, that is, if god granted us the will to be met. i dont like it.

if the separation lasts like one year, it is ok. but no more seeing each other, that is tough. very2 tough.

Goodbye My Lover

Did i disappoint you or let you down?

Should i be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

cause i saw the end before we'd begun

yes i saw you were blinded and i knew i had won

so i took what's mine by eternal right

took your soul out into the night

it may be over but it wont stop there

i am here for you if you'd only care

you touched my heart, you touched my soul

you changed my life and all my goals

and love is blind and that i knew when

my heart was blinded by you

i've kissed your lips and held your hand

shared your dreams and shared your bed

i know you well, i know your smell

i've been addicted to you

Goodbye my lover

Goodbye my friend

you have been the one

you have been the one for me

i am a dreamer and when i wake

you cant break my spirit - its my dreams you take

and as you move on, remember me

remember us and all we used to be

i've seen you cry, i've seen you smile

i've watched you sleeping for a while

i'd be the father of your child

i'd spend a lifetime with you

i know your fears and you know mine

we've had our doubts but now we're fine

and i love you, i swear thats true

i cannot live without you

and i still hold your hand in mine

in mine when i'm asleep

and i will bear my soul in time

when i'm kneeling at your feet

for all my close friends, teammates and my special one.

till we meet again fellas.

good luck in your lives.