Hello,
I am, as always, still awake. not that i cant sleep, i dont want to sleep yet. the reason? cause i got one more test to take tomorrow. and after the test, thats the end of my lectures in this semester.
now, let us see. we got writer's block, rocker's block, mental block. all of those blockades, are in me right now. my mind just slip away like that. u know the song, pixies - where is my mind. that song described exactly what i am feeling.
cause of those blocks, i cant seem to focus on my studies. its like secondary school all over again. haha.. lack of focus leads to lack of marks, eventually turns out to bad results. no, i am not going into that path again!
btw, people, lately, i have always dreamt of going back in the past. reminiscing each big steps that i took and realize how different my life would be if i took the other path. and how regretful i am to took those steps. maybe, just maybe, those are the things that haunt me right now. i feel insecure and small. i feel like i am a failure of my past!
lol. dont read it with such a sad manner. those past, are what make me who i am today. am i successful? not yet! i will be. one day. and one of the first steps is to start focusing on my test tomorrow. cause every 1% of my success, will lead to a long way.
stop thinking of my past and start focusing on the future.
Thursday, December 29
Monday, December 19
Its never too late
Hello.
its been a while, i know. please dont judge me. i am just a normal human being that does not prioritize blogging in my life cause i have other things else. well, they always say that.
nonetheless, this is the ending of the new semester. remember my last posts about finishing internship? well, this one, is the end of the semester after the internship.
its torrid, fast-paced, no rest, pressured and god willing successful semester. this is the first taste of level 5 room in a trimester system with debate and all other assignments clump together and thank god that i am still alive. barely though.
this is not the first time i have stayed till 3 am. its more of the norm now for me. doing stuffs till late night, waking up next day for lecture and ended up sleeping late again the next night. i wish that i have all the strength to repel all those urges to play games, waste time and even blogging.
but as a human being with an IQ not close to brilliant, i humbly struggle to end this semester. its just the beginning though. more to come and it keeps getting tougher too.
most of the time, i dreamt of my internship places, where there are all so many friends to cheer you up when you needed. and oh, i just missed a wedding of theirs recently. i am sorry. will get you something when i start working quz. T_T
well, that is how my life has changed. that is how my life has currently evolved into. the mixture of student/employee/child/teenager/adult. so far, i am still happy to be me. :)
regards.
its been a while, i know. please dont judge me. i am just a normal human being that does not prioritize blogging in my life cause i have other things else. well, they always say that.
nonetheless, this is the ending of the new semester. remember my last posts about finishing internship? well, this one, is the end of the semester after the internship.
its torrid, fast-paced, no rest, pressured and god willing successful semester. this is the first taste of level 5 room in a trimester system with debate and all other assignments clump together and thank god that i am still alive. barely though.
this is not the first time i have stayed till 3 am. its more of the norm now for me. doing stuffs till late night, waking up next day for lecture and ended up sleeping late again the next night. i wish that i have all the strength to repel all those urges to play games, waste time and even blogging.
but as a human being with an IQ not close to brilliant, i humbly struggle to end this semester. its just the beginning though. more to come and it keeps getting tougher too.
most of the time, i dreamt of my internship places, where there are all so many friends to cheer you up when you needed. and oh, i just missed a wedding of theirs recently. i am sorry. will get you something when i start working quz. T_T
well, that is how my life has changed. that is how my life has currently evolved into. the mixture of student/employee/child/teenager/adult. so far, i am still happy to be me. :)
regards.
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