royals 09

hi everyone..

i m just starting my holidays..

its seems longer this time of year..

time goes so slow..

btw, i have just finished participating in Royals 09 at UM..

here are some sneak peak at what degree is our bimboness there..

author berposing gne bju melayu yg xde motif pn utk dipakai pd mlm tersebut...

haihh...

yupp.. ni la banner royals tahun ni.. sory sbb rmai org lalu lalang dpn tu...

diorg cm nk rushing sgt2 blah.. xtw nape..

rookie of the year!

ha... ni la org yg telah membimbokn team senior.. lol...

-semenya-

newly elected head of utp english debate team! *chuckles*

-vicky-

his ever lasting assistant! *roflmaol*

-ismal-

the youngest team in the history of royals!

this is only the second day the team have met.. and royals is on its second day.. lol..

-moqa-a'rif-bao-

please dont be confused.. there is only one chinese in the team... :)

the team of the year!

1st tym msuk da final eventhough dpt 2nd in the end!

we are proud of u guys!

disclaimer : mereka adalah team utp bm k!

we are gonna miss her soooo much!

gud luck intern kak sarah~~

-bao-kaksarah-

the all blacks!

bajet2 all blacks la...

-ijat-a'rif-

bahana chin peng kembali ke msia!

nice one guys!

-malas da nk tulis nme.. byk sgt-

proper skit..

its a gud way to end eh..

i'll be missing u guys...

i m already.. sob3..

well... dats the story... in a short version of it..

my hope is that what we built there will last forever!

regards,

wawa... da hbs da rpenye....

this is the last post for this semester..
its the end.. i cant believe it..

DAS, MMU ramadhan IV, debate workshop...
only those two, but it brings a lot of impact on what is coming...
hurmm.. its the spices of this life rite..
people changes.. the one that existed before now gone.. undoubtedly..
well.. i guess its time for me to rest my head n head for a new beginning..
FESCO, JtechX, ROYALS...
i hope that i can cope with these inevitable future..
excited but also nervous and thrilled to face these things..
phew..
last but not least, this sem is absolutely better than the last one..

i might not be able to update this in quite a while.. no internet at home.. therefore, pls understand that i m not going to let this blog bersawang..

til then.. adieu... ^_^

phew...

well.. da lme xupdate blog.. there are multiple reasons why this blog has been in silence..
most of u know it rite....

i have been spending all these days after 18th nov (paper hbs) up until now in UTP by
studying, reading case studies, eseiment dude! and etc..
hehe..
ok.. stop those crap! i aint fooling nobody.. darn it..

ignorance is bliss... but i noe for sure that these enjoyable moments wont last forever.. the tide is changing and i am starting to be in front of a stockpile of workloads!

hope that i can endure these tiring change of times..

btw, its all over.. not just the semester is gone.. but the whole year is gone.. i have evolved into a better person than before i hope.. :)

i dn have picts to depicts the year.. i m sory. too lazy to find one and post one here.. nk men game sgt ni sbnrnye.. :)

til next year lads.. the memories never die and i will always cherish it in my life.. nite n gudluck to all of u yg ngah berexam.. :)

exam july09..

hi.. sempena start paper esok, nk wish sume, slamat berexam! smoge maju jaya!

silap exam plak! lol.. :P

ni la keadaan aku esok.. kot.. lalalala~

haih... kalau ade buku tu, aku da lme da bce... huuuuu

p/s : gud luck sume... :D

di kala zaman skola, ade 4 jersi chelsea.. skg ni ade ag byk.. tp gmbr xupload + mls cari..
:D

moral nye dlm post ni, i really hope that my schoolhood team will do their best tonite~
tu je.. tu pn kalau lampard, drogba, terry bace la kn blog ni.. T_T
btw, hrp2 xjd exsiden cm smlm ye.. :D

p/s : bosan di kala final ag... haihh.. bile nk start study ni....

wakaka

dlm ni, xde kakcik! kak cik yg berusaha mengambil gmbr! haha..
note : yg rmbut pjg tu my bro k! bkn pmpuan tu..
memories last forever~

its a memorable journey~

xde idea da smpai kne ltk gmbr ni...
lol.. btw, ni bkn kt cameron pny k!
:D

ni tym f5 dlu.. ngn bdk2 skola.. :D
tbe je terigt kt diorg sbb diorg nk spm da..
gudluck guys~

ni gmbr classical! tym f3 dlu.. kitorg g melaka tym ni~ sonok seyh~
btw, gmbr ni unik.. bercahaya kitorg.. cm angel~ lol..
btw, try la cari aku!

haa! ni one of the most lates pics.. ni gmbr grupmates finance!
kitorg berjaya me'rock' kn presentation! yeah!
hrp2 dpt CW tggi la ye.. T_T

small reunions of PRS smapk! (eventhough dlm pix ni xsume prs kn.. :) )
several da fly da pn~ huuuu...
smoge berjaye sume dlm bidang msg2~

ni namenye harith tgh melahar! haha.. gurau je..
ni b4 present finance.. nk hilangkn neves.. lol.. neves la sgt!

p/s : bosan di kala nk final.. doa kn kami..

......................

i juz got a call... a very dear fren of mine called and said, hey! i m drunk rite now n i feel guilty to u..

wth? wt are u trying to prove? in any religion, drinking is not a good thing.. i hv advised u not to do so..
u r not that stupid.. u r able to think well... u r one of the most sensible person i hv ever met n u did those things juz becos u wanted to get rid of ur problems...
i m dissappointed...
i got a conversation on ym before that has advise me to talk to him becoz the person believe that my friend has changed a lot... it made me think.. was his act juz now is becoz of me abondoning him.. i agree that i have less conversation with him lately... i agree that distance has pull us apart... but why do such things... damn it.. i really dun noe what to think rite now...
i m frustrated in u.. i trusts u not to do anything stupid on ur own.. it feels like i have lost the only best fren that i have ever had... when i know him, he always so sensible.. even with a lot of probs, he dont do stupid things... but now, he is a reckless person..
i dn noe wt went wrong.. maybe he thinks that getting drunk is not a prob becoz his community (friends rite now) always drink and all... but i do believe that he is not him anymore...
drastic changes... i am disappointed with u.. really2...
in a way, i think that it is my fault not to stop him with all my will... i didnt do it becoz i believe in him.. i believe that he is sensible and thoughtful enough not to drink even though his friends are... i should have done better...
theres nothing so sucks like the one is happening rite now... i jz hope that he is lying.. it struck me so hard!
pls my fren, dn be like them as u r not like them... be whoever u r n never follow others that will ruin ur life.. u r always like that... that is ur advise to me... now, i dn noe what u r...
what ever it is, what ever u do, i condemn all the bad ones n i jz really hope that u r safe n sound... thats all i can do.. hope... i m sorry my friend to have abondon u....

wahhhh

i dn realise it.. its already one thousand views on this blog..

although, almost 50% comes from me and the comments posted on this blog does not even reach 150 comments. it is an understatement to say that the comments even reach 100. lol..

i jz feel happy knowing that a normal and uninteresting person like me got to that feat. :D

btw, the election in UTP = sucks!

haha..

lantak la diorg.. sndiri2 msuk kubur, sndiri2 jwb la ye.

btw, UTPians, including myself, please be ethical. no matter what u do, be professional k. its a reminder, not an advise. reminding myself not to do the things that would be unethical.

p/s : berserah PADAMU jua akhirnya!

the inevitable

well, obviously from my few previous posts, i am in a bad state. bad in terms of emotion.

then, the inevitable happens. i begin to feel better. the more days i spent, i begin to feel like i can pull this huge burden through. this reminds me of something that i always remember.

life is like a wheel, you will have your time where you are at the bottom at the wheel and you will roll your way to the top and falls back again to the bottom. it is inevitable.

thinking about it, perhaps i am climbing to the upper part of the wheel after spending days at the bottom of it. i hope that this will stay for a while as i kinda miss this feelings.

i need focus and need to stay on my own line of focus. that will helps me a lot. i really hope that when i read this back, i will always remember this advice to myself. focus is the most important thing.

p/s : bersedia utk halangan tggi yg seterusnye!

wishing upon a fallen star

i wish..

i wish that i would be a better person..

i wish that i would prioritize things right...

i wish to be someone who i always envy of...

i wish that i have something to be proud of...

i wish that i would not be the same as i am now...

i wish to be different from the person who i wanted to be different...

i wish that these bad feelings would just go away...

how i wish that these wishes would come true...

broken arrow

hye..

broken arrow is a military code name whereby the infantry unit has been cut out and they demand all air strikes possible in the operation to help them bail out.

tu je kot nk share.. xde smgt la.. lately ni, i am not that energetic.. no more that proactive.. why.. xde smgt da.. xde smgt nk wt ape2.. nk kate mls, xplak tdo or tgk muvi.. wt keje tu, wt jgk.. tp cm siput je... skit.. skit... last2 dpt jgk syap.. org late, ptut msuk gear 5 da skg ni.. tp rse cm mkin pancit plak la... haih... nk refuel, tp kt mne? sape yg sggup nk merefuel kn diri ini...
haih...
sbr je la kn.. nk wt cne da.. huhu..
nk ngs pn ade skg.. out of no reason.. haha... da la.. sentimental sbntr ye.. emosi xstabil sgt2.. tmbh ngn kesihatan n kewangan yg sgt2 xstabil n xsecure... haih.. everythg juz seem incorrect wif me rite now,...

p/s : T_T

dude

i really think something is wrong with me...

look at the time.. not that i am not sleeping but i am not even feel like to.. darn it..

i know that if i sleep then i will miss my train at 4.50 in the morning but at times, i will sleep no matter what.. but now, my eyes are not heavy...

i really hope theres nothing wrong..

btw, its a happy day for me.. i think i should put it for both of us..

its supposed to and should to.. but obligations makes it impossible to do anything and i guess that inevitable...

well, do pray for my safety on my trip to kl..

p/s : i m going home... tp xgtw sape2 pn kt umah.. mau terkejut beruk diorg..

insomnia

i have just slept for 4 hours...

i am tired and need of a very big rest...

but i cant sleep..

i cant rest..

i need to strive...

no to sleep as sleeping takes away your time..

p/s : korg yg nek kete aku, beware.. aku ngntok korg bwk ea...

big sigh

the previous post..

lots of comments n feedbacks from it.. be it in here or in personal... it draws the attention of peeps.. well, i do not write it for the sake of publicity..

if i do not do it..

1. i would not be able to complete the 1st draft of my project
2. i would still be cursing to the 'people'
3. i would probably take a swing at my rumate or anyone nearby...

i am not that extrovert usually.. but i cannot keep it in me anymore.. its one of those things that i am really pissed off... i cannot talk about it to someone else.. as my tone would seem like i am pissed off towards the people that are hearing although they are not responsible for it..

my councilor once said : ur feelings are like balloons.. the moment u decided not to let it be expressed, it will be blown into just like a balloon.. then, the more u kept it to ur self, the bigger the balloon will be.. in the end, the balloon will burst..

p/s : maaf ye...

fuck you!

i am really pissed off..

1st. do u fucking guys know what is the meaning of a fucking manners?
2nd. do u fucking guys think that u are so fucking good after doing that?
3rd. what is your fucking right to do such fucking thing to others?
4th. you fucking think that u r fucking good to do that?
5th. u fucking do that because you fucking think that u are qualified to go to heaven and others dont?
6th. do you fucking guys think that doing it was fucking good?
7th. u guys are fucking coward cause u fucking guys went straight away after doing the fucking thing.. u fucking guys dont have ur fucking balls to confront me face to fucking face...
8th. who the fuck tell u to do such thing?
9th. do u fucking guys know anyfuckingthing about human rights and how to fucking respect it?
10th. next fucking time u do that again towards me, then u will fucking get what u fucking deserves...
11th. do u fucking guys know what is bil hikmah?
12th. u fucking guys always look down on fucking others and think that u fucking guys are always right to do such fucking things that u dont fucking realise that what u r doing is fucking wrong..
13th. find another fucking way to do so as it is not FUCKING effective

p/s : fuck fuck fuck

shewolf

know about one song?

sang by shakira.. named shewolf..
besides than the irrecogniseable lyrics, i like the part where she howls like a wolf.. really mesmerizing to hear that.. theres a special aura surrounding the howls... its like something really cute.. the way shakira howls it..
auww.. with a pinch of seductiveness, the howls rang perfect to my ears.. hehe..

p/s : geli gk a bace balek bnde kt atas ni.. lalala...

warghhh

salam..
welcome back to all utpians who are now just realise that there are tonnes of workload waiting for all of us... what a semester this is..

well, the hardest thing is to get the ball rolling.. once it is rolling, u need to keep it rolling.. if it stops, then the humongous ball will be a hard task of rolling again.. maybe one can add some lubricants to make the ball rolls but a ball is round.. it will be hard to determine its course and the added lubricants will makes it more difficult to predict where it can ended..

some dont mind about the end result so they opted for the lubricant.. like what i did last sem.. it turns out that the ball doesn't end where it should be.. far, far away beyond my imagination that it landed..

i am determined to land the ball right this semester.. not making it to stray away far from my reach and target.. but the ball is harder than last sem.. i wish that i would have build up the neccessary strength for the big push..

in just 6 weeks, everything shall end.. in just 6 weeks, the ball should be at the designated place for it.. in just 6 weeks, a part of my future will be determined..

hope that i did well in this 6 weeks.. hope the best for my friends also~

p/s : susanye nk buang rase malas.. kn2... =.="

festivitiy

salut..

i have a tag, but i will do it later.. it means after this post.. this is because, i will never gonna update my blog during the holidays... lol.. :D

btw, selamat hari raya aidilfitri. hope that everyone enjoys it or tries to enjoy it even though having tonnes of workload right after the holidays.. T_T

do drive safely as the will never be busier than this festive season which will see the rate of road accidents become highest during a whole year..

selamat hari raya..

p/s: xde kad raya or ucapan best2 sbb da nk g kelas.. tata~

test!

hi..

just behind the corner is Hari Raya..
just right in front of me is finance test, dcn assignment, oop lab test...
my view to the annual Hari Raya is blocked completely and i don't like it!
the festive mood is not there.. yes, as i wrote about this, many more people are suffocating behind their books or laptop to study or to complete their respective assignments...
their view towards raya is also blocked and being taken away from them...
gosh.. cant they be considerate.. i pity them..
well, as i laboured through the books and notes tonight, i will be thinking about others who are deprived of their right to celebrate raya..

anyway, selamat hari raya to all!

p/s : sdh sbb ade test n byk ag bnde eventhough da dkt nk cuti.. pas cuti ag la byk bnde... T_T

malas

wahai encik malas.. apakah hajat tuan datang ke mari?
hamba belum bersedia menantikan kedatang tuan.. namun, tuan telah menghadirkan diri...
apakah tuan tidak tahu bahawa hamba mempunyai 2 ujian getir di kemudian hari?
untuk melayan kerenah tuan, hamba perlu berhempas pulas! inikan pula hendak memenuhi semua kehendak tuan malas!
mengapakah hamba tuan malas dan bukannya rakan sebilik hamba yang sedang berpulas2 untuk ujian getir tersebut?
hamba tidak mampu untuk melayan tuan! hamba akan jatuh di bawah pujuk rayu tuan! jangan lah mendera hamba sebegitu rupa, tuan malas!
apa kata, tuan malas pergi melawat rakan sebilik hamba! barulah adil dan saksama! beliau pun akan mengalu-alukan kedatangan tuan!

p/s : syoh! syoooh! pergi jauh2! sory ye rumate.. gurauan je.. :P

never giving up!

KONG FOUK ANN	UTP 2	75	74	73	75	297	74.3
SALIOU	IIUM 4	73	74	75	74	296	74.0
SYAHEERA	IIUM 4	70	76	75	75	296	74.0
GLUTES	MMU4	72	73	77	74	296	74.0
YI LING	MMUM1	75	74	71	75	295	73.8
ILYAS	UTMARA 1	76	74	72	73	295	73.8
AERIE	UTMARA 2	73	70	76	76	295	73.8
MAHA	UTP 2	74	73	74	74	295	73.8
ONG KOK CHEN	KDU MCA	77	75	68	74	294	73.5
RENO	UKM 1	71	75	72	76	294	73.5
ALEX WONG	UKM 1	72	73	72	77	294	73.5
SHAQ	UTMARA 3	75	74	75	70	294	73.5
JONATHAN	UMS 1	71	75	74	73	293	73.3
CHZE LOR	UMS 1	72	74	75	72	293	73.3
WAN NOR SARAH	CFS 1	70	74	74	74	292	73.0
SHAFIQ	CFS 1	70	72	75	75	292	73.0
DENICE	LKW 1	74	74	72	72	292	73.0
CLANS MAN	MMU2	67	76	75	74	292	73.0
KEN MMG YEE	MONASH	73	72	73	74	292	73.0
CHEAH LIAT KWANG	MONASH	74	72	73	73	292	73.0
SHEREN	UMS2	74	71	73	74	292	73.0
KIN WAI	UTM 1	73	76	73	70	292	73.0
STIFLER	UTMARA 5	70	72	75	75	292	73.0
TASNIM	UTMARA 7	75	67	78	72	292	73.0
JOHNNY BOY	MMU7	75	70	73	73	291	72.8
THRONG	UTMARA 4	71	70	75	75	291	72.8
THOGORI KARAGO	LKW 2	70	72	75	73	290	72.5
BAHAR	MMU5	73	70	73	74	290	72.5
GEE	MMUM3	73	74	70	73	290	72.5
GIVI	MMUM3	75	73	70	72	290	72.5
LIM SHAN SHAN	UMS2	73	70	74	73	290	72.5
THO WERNMING	KDU MCA	76	74	65	74	289	72.3
MARIUS	MMU4	70	72	74	73	289	72.3
KENNIE	MMU7	75	69	72	73	289	72.3
NUR FARAHIN	UKM 2	73	69	72	75	289	72.3
McG	UTMARA 6	74	75	66	74	289	72.3
MUKHARIZ	UTP 3	73	71	73	72	289	72.3

you guys noe what is this?? this is the tab for the previous ramadhan IV in mmu... you guys noe why i put this up? what does all this figures means??

this figures means that i am the third among debaters of utp in the previous IV.. however, look at the gap between the second and the third! its damn huge! both of the up there deserve to be there but wanna be up there too... huhu... guess what... i am gonna make something to improve on this.... after the raya break, there will be another IV at utmara shah alam... i want to improve after this...

why did i put this up?? because i want to share it with everyone and i want a place where i can see it everyday reminding how bad are you and that i shud improve! i surely dont want to be there the next time... we'll see after this whether i failed or not...

to explain more about the figures, i am at 57th ranking while kong there is at 21st and maha at 30th... lot of grounds to cover rite... plus, there are not better speakers above me.. they do not talk that good but they are above me.. not to brag bout myself here but the truth speaks... i guess that i am less good than them... sighs...

well, we'll see what happens next time... wish me luck k...

p/s : gigih mengugle and wt research utk utmara IV pasni!! :D

lol

hi.. :D

i gotta felling..
that tonite's gonna be a good nite...
:D

i got my money, lets spent it up!
i got my sofa, lets kick it up!

tonite's the nite!
lets spin it up!
lets burn the roof!
and then we do it again!

p/s : sdg sibuk berkaraoke seorg diri smbil dgr lagu kuat2! maap ye jiran2! (sibuk la sgt!)

a minute pls..

hi..

i am recently back from mmu cyberjaya.. back from a new and unexplainable experience that i would bear for most of my time here in utp..
i would say that this is not the best trip u have had and it is not the worst either.. new things learn and new people known...

within a minute, everything can go the opposite.. within a minute, happy can turn into sad.. within a minute, poor to rich and vice versa.. that is the power of a minute.. a minute that one always waste with doing nothing or even doing something unuseful (talking to myself here!)..

well, within that one minute also what differentiate between no 1 and no 2... T_T

p/s : menang 2 kalah 2 di mmu ramadhan intervarsity... bnde penting ialah : learn!

aiyooo

salutations..

i think most of u are aware that there are something not rite with the last post.. i do hope that i am not offending anyone else...
words are a nasty thing to play with.. i learnt that last tym.. hey guys.. please dont get me wrong k..

my frens are still my frens.. the same feelg never resides.. its just at that particular moment, i am emotionally unstable and i feel bad that tym.. pls understand me.. i donot want to lose anythg due to the lousy emotion of mine and the post that costs it all... pls..

if any of you want confirmation of anythg.. just talk to me k.. gtalk or anythg.. i am really terrified to lose all of u... pls.. that is all i want to say in this post... talk to me if any of you feels that we need to talk..

p/s: baru sedar kekuatan kata2... kerana mulut bdn binasa, kerana keyboard, org terasa!

its a start

hi..

today is a very peaceful day.. the most peaceful day i have ever encountered ever since i have returned here from my spell at the hospital ward.. hehe..

maybe because it is the ramadhan... and the nonexistence of the burdening assignment that created this atmosphere.. i like it.. hehe.. the tranquility that comes once in a year... (^_^)

its a start.. a start to let go of the past and create a better future... right..

i personally want to say happy ramadhan to everyone.. hehe..

p/s:jgn ade ponteng pose ye~

salvation

hi..

its been a while since i havent update my blog.. gladly to say that i m healthy and keep on getting healthier day by day.. hehe... btw, ever since i have come back from my looooong holiday, it has been a very2 busy period for me...

well... i am quite sad and dissappointed and shock and awe about a few things lately.... hurmm... how can i start without even making terase hati bout it?

let me say that others do not treat us like we treat them.. in this case, its what i feel about them and what i get from which i consider as unfair.. it seems like the mistakes of the past are haunting them and the best way to get rid of it is by denying my existence.. what makes it worst is that the other people that surrounds me do not have the same treatment like what i get.. it is unfair and it makes me think a lot about it... thinking what have i done wrong is the most significant thing that goes on my mind... why i am treated like this... sigh...

(the older post have been edited)

da la.. hilang mood nk tulis da.. nk g berak and syap2 nk grk.. bye!

p/s: sape mkn ikan, rase ikan ye... jgn nk rse bnde len plak..

contingency

as i am writing this, i am enjoying the highly rapid speed of the internet due to loss of people using this facility....

due to the sudden increase of the UTP's h1n1 case, then UTP has been officially closed from today 3 pm until thursday 3 pm.. :D

the end of a beginning

in the Chancellor Hall
28 July 2009
3.30 pm

tgn kiri ke depan~
ke belakang~
depan, belakang~
dan goyangkan~

as these words rings in my ears, i cant help but to burst into tears.. maybe some notice it but maybe not.. i hide my face behind the songkok while i tried so hard to wipe up the tears.. its bittersweet.. its so emotional at the time.. its so enjoyable yet so sad... with all the work and efforts put into this.. with all the memories and joy... i just wish that it lasted forever.. i fell like i have lost lots of things right after this.. what will happen is just be a happy memories not just for me but to all of the organising committees...

the tears that fall.. it meant a lot.. even when i leave high school, i dont cry... but this.. its just strike me so hard... to think that i need to depart with all of them and will not work together again.. would not be able to cheer the same thing and not be able to complain about the same problems.. its the departure that hurts me a lot.. even though none of us died but the relationship that has been created will not be the as the same again... its about the realtionship that i cried about..

how do i get better once i have had the best.. i just hope that time will stay and never moved... its the only time when i feel comfortable about me and others.. really..

i miss u guys.. i miss das.. i miss working with the das committees... i miss the exhaustion that make me sick for a day.. i miss the excitement... i miss the tommy.. i miss it all.. 25 - 28 july 2009.. will never be erased from my memory.. thank you to evryone involved in DAS 2009!

:,)

a little too late?

hello..

as i am writing this post, i have just finished watching transformers 2 revenge of the fallen...

yupp.. have just finished watching it.. believe it or not.. well, i am very2 disappointed right now.. not with the movie or anything to do with the story line, but disappointed that i am unable to watch transformers at the cinema.. instead, just being reduced to this little room with my roomate snoring already(duh, its like 4 am!)

well, its bittersweet to watch this movie.. 1st, i am very2 enthralled with this movie.. really a big big fan. ever since i know that Michael bay is directing the sequel, i have made it a must to watch the second one at a cinema.. but, what you hope for is what you never get(not always though)..

enough with the sadness.. i should be happy today! happy because i have finally watched a movie being criticized so much that most of my friends dont want to watch it but it is actually money worth it(compare with the hapless harry potter!).. its just ignites my sparks of excitement watching bumblebee and optimus fighting and wrestling with constructicons and lots.. it made my biological morphine to secretes and creates adrenaline rush! seriously(providded that one watched it with lights off and a headphone tucked inside their ears)..

also, i should be happy because i have been handpicked to be the timekeeper for the final of DAS2009! i would love to be the speaker but timekeeper is not as bad as i can get... its not something that i would like to promote but i just feel glad about it! not just that, irda would join me up there on stage next to the speaker.. really hope that she would get her health status cleared by the doctors this thursday! pasni, minum byk2 air ye!

not to forget that i am drafted into the UTP team that would be participating in the great serdang debate.. really looking forward to that! i would not want to disgrace the name of UTP.. i am drafted alongside arif amin! one of the most exciting newbie that i have met in these few years debating(arif manages to complete a seven minute speech and a minute half open speech! its not easy ok!).. i am looking forward to get the proper guidance and help from my friends and seniors in debate.. :D provided if they would like to do so.. :P

again with the DAS2009, i am now officially the usher for UKM.. kinda afraid of what might i encountered, but at the same time, excitement creeps in.. :D cant imagine what DAS2009 would be like.. hope it will be just fine! :D

also, right now, i am thinking of someone who is a dear friend of me.. long time that i have not talked to him.. hope that he still appreciates our friendship!

nevertheless, i am happy! i am excited! i dont want to think about my finance class tomorrow! pls.. can i do that? :P

to wrap things up, its really enjoying to watched transformers.. watching it has made me secretes my morphine(that ignites happiness) thus making me thinking of everything that makes me happy right now! :D

p/s : hope the happiness stays.. :D

at last

today marks the start of a new semester..

even though i have been here for about two weeks but only today that i can sense a new beginning is upon me..

before, i can only meet peoples i know at a certain places and not just around the corner (like in the bathroom or at my corridor) but now, i can do that.. it is what i have been craving for like a year.. ever since i am at foundation 1st, i have never been able to do so.. now, at last, the time has come for me..

what significance that it brings to me? it has made me feel like i have quite a number of friends actually.. when they saw me, they would nod, or raise the hand as a gesture of acknowledging i am there..

before, when i come out of my room, what greets me is the stench of several people not taking their baths for weeks or even months.. and when i went to the toilets or walk on the corridor, there would be weird looks being set upon me as if i am an alien from another world.. how would you feel, if you were isolated in your own territory..

i am glad at least i am not being treated like that anymore.. there are people whom i know and no longer the hard stench of people not taking their baths.. thank god!

although i know that i would feel like this for the rest of the semester, at least, i am thankful due to the reception that i get here..

btw, my roomate are now able to play DOTA with me.. i am glad for that too.. :')

hurmmm...

hello..

my ever waited rumate is finally here to join me in this new room..
i m obviously enjoyed his presence as i have been sleeping alone for the past few days..
while my friends are all away with something to do..
i am obviously bored..


btw, as being instructed by eddy, i am hereby would like to ask all of you who have been here into my blog (if there is any) to visit the blog where i have been putting my efforts into..

debatalamsekitar2009~

this is important! please do click this link! even if once! i appreciate it... thank you~

btw, if all of you want to know, DAS2009 is an event that is very prestigious.. its an event where i have the chance to an ushers for one of the participating universities..
i have been sweating and puffing for this event.. i really hope that it really will be a successful event where everybody will be happy about it!

please.. do click the link k!

i dream a dream

hello..
today,as i woke up.. i have one of the most heart pounding dream..
it is not a nightmare.. but its a dream so hard to interpret..

some people say a dream is just a flashback of what we have done for the day..
some people say a dream is just a resonance of the future..
some people say a dream is just the devil's work of art..
some people say a dream is just a man's creative imaginations...
some people say a dream is just a dream..

i say,my latest dream is just my heart's desire that i must kept to myself for the benefit of all..
i m not going to brag about my dream.. no! it is not a wet dream k! but its a dream so real, that my heart feels like its going to jump out of my chest.. i noe some of u have experienced this kind of dream..

how would i interpret this dream.. do i have something on someone? do i need to have something on someone? is this feeling is just temporary? sighs.. i just hope so..

the point is, after the dream, it makes me realise about something.. something that i have feared the most.. the one thing that i have hope for all this while not to be bestowed upon me.. i am beginning to be afraid of myself.. afraid of what i could have become.. and afraid of my future actions and what its impact on other..

its amazing to see what a dream could have done to me.. i wish that i have not dreamed the dream.. it really stabs me to my heart..

i really dont know what i have felt after i have woke up.. happy,fear,doubt,satisfaction,denial..

its complicated.

p/s : do be reminded! it is not a wet dream!

erk

helo..

again.. i m exhausted..
i m very2 tired with all the activities being held here.
despite being needed to be back earlier, but i do fell its worth it..
right now, i am very hungry.. hunger of food.. i dont know why, but my appetite seems increasing since the day that i left home..
seriously,i only eat like one meal a day at home.. but here, i wish that i could eat 24/7..

why is this happening.. even when writing about this post makes my stomach to rumble..
even though its not even my should-be-mealtime, i need to find food..

p/s: i m looking for something to eat.. :D

little thoughts

whoa~
i m tired. exhausted.
full of surprise life is.
one sec, u r happy then the other sec, u become gloomy.
nice ek..

thats basically what i felt today.
one moment, i was laughing with friends and peoples who made my day valuable.
then one moment, i begin thinking bout something.
something that has been bothering me since i arrived.

let me tell u something, it is easy for us to fell appreciated or fell like u r one part of something that u are not.
be careful k.
its not easy to cope with when reality sneaks in.

sometimes, it is us being very expecting of something.
and when it does not, the only result is sad or depressed or questions about loyalty sneaks in.
its not i being unappreciative. please dont take me wrong.
i am just trying to express rather than keep it in.
most of us dont realise much they do. it implies to me.

well.... its not wrong to be expecting but with expectations, there will be pain.
that is what i have learn along my life..
does not necessarily mean that u never expect, but lower ur expectations.
sometimes, its ur fault that u didnt tell anyone anything about ur expectation.
human tend to forget..

lets just assume everything is going to be alrite for the nite..
no one is going to be questioned about anything..
its just an expression of emotions..
thank you if u ever read to this part or any part of my post and blog..
hope u enjoy ur day as much as u do.

p/s: still sad about something not very important... :D

lalalalalala

hello.

i just cannot watch and stay silent about the decisions being made by the authorities that really struck the very foundation of my studies. even though i m no longer taking any science and maths subjects, but i cannot deny that my experience in learning them for five years really do helps.

i just cannot understand the underlying reason behind the amendment of the result. is it fear of the opposition? is it really true that the government really want to improve the very language that one speaks everyday in their daily life???? i just cannot put my mind into it.

if the govt really want to "memperkasakan" the mother tongue of this nation, then there are more ways to implement it rather than abolishing the PPSMI. like changing the curiculum of the subject itself. many of my friends, who are undoubtedly the first batch to take maths and science in English for their SPM are convinced that the language is not a barrier. the one thing that block them from achiving success is the change of answering scheme.

like in my chemistry paper, there are wrong questions being put in the SPM question paper that need to be adjusted by the teachers after the students have answered the paper. the point is, language is never a barrier to succeed. maths are still numbers.

please oh my dear ruling govt. make this decision upon thinking about our future generation that will be more globalised than now while the information is not being produced in BM.
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effervesence

hello.

due to the commotion about to happen on 8th of july.

several people with different ideas manipulate lots of people and able to influence them to do as they say. that is my def about politics. a person dear to me once spoken,if you on top of the hierarchy,you are more vulnerable. vulnerable until your private life is being watched by others and being used as something against you. like the idea that your bed time is being photographed and being spread in the internet? or yours words and speech are used as a mockery between colleagues.

the inevitable facts that runs through our daily life. the idea is to make a fun out of someone or somebody until one forgot that his/her is as vulnerable as the person they mock about. be it at national level or even at a smaller/larger scale in life.

people can say what they want. to please or to plead. it sucks but its life. this mean that life sucks. most of it sucks. damn.

people tend to create a mask that they wore publicly to hide their true self because they are afraid that people cant accept who they are. they talked differently, acting to be pleasing in the eye of the public while actually, when they show their true self, people are shocked to the extend that they refuse believe it.

most people who are followers are as dumb as the people who leads. because we are human and not a god. that is why human need to follow the only ONE that will never make a mistake.the only Almighty.

pray to god that the truth will be shown. and guides us in our pesty little life. i believe in what i believe. that is the guilty will always be punished. this world or hereafter.

not yet lah!

salut!
this post is just a prove that this blog is up and going again.
after weeks of punishment without the comfort of the internet, finally!
right now, back in action but lack of creative ideas to post. maybe due to the overdose of sleep!
right! dont blame it on sleeping, but its the unhealthy diet. albeit the unhealthiness in the cafeteria.
damn. just lack of ideas.
anyway, this blog is not yet bersawang! not yet!
:D

Tagged [ by ash ]

1. Please upload pictures of your favourite foods (donuts,noodles,ice-creams,dishes & etc):

sdap x?? cm v5 punya je kn... T_T

sinfully seductive!

2. Why do you like to eat it so much?

silly question ma.. sbb dy sdap lor.. xsdap xmkn.. hehe.. :D

3. Who tagged you with this tag? Describe briefly about him/her.

ash - peminat kucing yg kini menjadi peminat mengetag org.. :D

4. Can you cook? (YES or NO)

absolutely.. pnh wt several dishes that has been given the thumbs up by the greatest chef (my mother) :D hebat x?? hebat kn!!! ^_^

5. If you answered YES to question 4, give a name of one of your friends whom you wanted to cook for, state what do you want to cook for him/her and why do you want to cook for him/her. If you answered NO to question 4, give a name of one of your friends whom you wanted to treat to a lunch or a dinner, state what food do you want to treat him/her and why do you want to treat him/her.

my mother and family and she who will not be named.. :D
nk masak masakan western utk diorg! if possible spagetti la.. why? because i love western foods and they like spagetti! da lame xmkn spagetti masak sendiri.. asyik mkn yg v5 punya je.. T_T

6. Tag another 8 bloggers and state the reason why do you want to tag them:

1. eddy - dy ngah berpanas2 di perlis skg ni.. gambatte eh!
2. peklah! - da lame da x tag bdk ni! gud luck co!
3. fazril!!!!!!! - u noe why.. favourite topic?? :P
4. syazi - hehehe... kne bahan la ko wt bnde ni nant... sory~ :P
   
5. syahmi - da xsabar2 nk balek da ye!! hehe..
6. awien - xpenah tag pun dy ni... hehe.. teringin jgk..
7. ayie - nk tgk ape reaksi dy!! ^_^
8. last but not least... lilik! cm best jer.. huhuuu..
   

rumate sdg study sambil membuka notes CO!! wah... T_T

Tagged [ by aman ]

1- Copy Award Diatas Untuk Diletakkan Di Blog Anda.

2- Nyatakan 5 Fakta Menarik Tentang Si Pemberi Award Ini.

1. ni lah rumate aku~
2. minat jepun gegiler.. tp aku gk yg g sne dlu.. :P
3. tiap2 hari, mesti dgr lagu jepun yg ade kt page dy tuh.. aku pun kene la tumpang dgr @_@
4. baru je wt blog dy nih... :D
5. kalau mak dy masak, mmg sdap kow2 punya.. xtipu!!!!
   

3- Setiap Blogger Mestilah Menyatakan 10 Fakta Atau Hobi Diri Sendiri.

1. hurmmm.. aku sgt suka n sayang kpd desktop aku.. fakta nih!!!
2. da ade desktop, ape lg.. men game la!!
   
3. bercita-cita nk jd biotechnologist.. tp rezeki di negeri org... T_T
4. ye. mmg ayah saya pegawai daerah.. haa... daerah ape? itu yg kite xtw.. (apakah???)
5. dulu, penah kne ketuat kt tgn!! ibu jari kiri! fuiyooooo...
6. haaa... xpenah lg jumpe ngn skulmate tym skola rendah dlu since msuk utp... mne korg ek??
7. sorg yg punyai berat 23 kg dan setinggi 200 cm! xcaye, meh ukur sndiri!! :P
8. xminat dlm politik but curious to see how things will developed....
9. ade sorg member yg bernama fazril yg bwu je dpt ps3!! jeles siot!!!
   
10. haaa... last pun.. byk ni....
    

4- Anda Perlu Memilih 10 Penerima Award Seterusnya Dan Describe Tentang Mereka

since ade bberape yg da kne tagged ngn aman, therefore, i opted to tagged sumone else...

1. fazril - pemilik ps3 yg berbangga!
2. muiz - gud luck exam!! opss.. description kah ini??
   
3. atiqah zayadi - skulmate.. da 2 kali da tagged dy.. xwt2 jgk.. huuu T_T
4. ainul - KS bahagian islamic?? curious jp di situ... :D
5. ash - kipas susah mati kucing dan ikan keli goreng.. ^_^
6. atul - HOD merangkap 'sedara' aku.. :P
7. pok su - gud luck exam jgk! study econs elok2!!
   
8. rahman kelantan - pilih la landasan yg paling bermanfaat!! bkn landasan keretapi! lol..
9. anep - nk bg ade post skit blog dy nih!! karang kne msuk dlm kategori bersawang... ngeh2..
10. puet - pelakon yg berjaya melakonkan watak di dunia ni... :)

rumate ku da tdo.. T_T

fuck

please forgive the authors unpleasant and vulgar words. he is just trying too hard to escape boredom and instead of doing anything good, he chooses to do this. well, what else can you expect from a 18 year old?

perhaps one of the most interesting words in the english language today is the word fuck.
out of all the english words that begin with the letter f, fuck is the only word that is referred to as the f-word. its the one magical word.

just by it sound, it can describe pain, pleasure, hate and love.

fuck as most words in the english language is derived from german; the word freiken which means to strike. in english, fuck falls into many grammatical category.

as a transitive verb : john fuck shirley.

as an intransitive verb : shirley fucks.

its meaning not as always sexual. it can be used as an adjective : john's doing all the fucking work.

as part of an adverb : shirley talks too fucking much.

as an adverb enhancing an adjective : shirley is fucking beautiful.

as a noun : i dont give a fuck.

as part of a word : abso-fucking-lutely or in-fucking-credible.

and as almost every word in a sentence : fuck the fucking fuckers.

as you must realise there arent too many words with the versatility of fuck. as in these examples discribing situations such as dismay : ahh fuck it.

trouble : i guess i am really fucked now.

agression : dont fuck with me buddy!

difficulty : i dont understand this fucking question.

incompetence : he is a fuck off!

i am sure you can think many more examples. with all of these multipurpose applications, how can anyone be offended when you used the word. we say, use this unique flexible word more often in your daily speech. it will identifiy the quality of your character immidiately.

say it. out and loud!

end of lesson.

undone

salutations..

one surprising night, mr paroy surprisingly tried to watch some movies to relieve his super boredom staying in the super unexciting room, surprisingly alone.

while mr paroy is browsing through his super folders of movies, mr paroy had a surprise to find out about a film which mr paroy has downloaded and never had the intention to see it in the near future.

then mr paroy watched the movie(s) without hesitation. in the end, mr paroy ended up writing for a blog which has only one post that exceeds 5 comments. but mr paroy keeps on writing because mr paroy just want to have something to do as it is already 6.30 am and mr paroy puts priority on not sleeping after his subuh prayer.

mr paroy has quite a surprise when one of mr paroy's colleague has not kindly asked mr paroy to put her name in the link list. mr paroy apologises for that as mr paroy is just another human with lots of mistakes done and will be doing and will do.

mr paroy has decided on stopping all the thing that he has been doing right now and start to listen to his soggy eyes as they screamed for help; to be closed and done for the day.

mr paroy just so bored that he wrote this post. poor mr paroy. hope he is safe unlike mr moqa. :P

what goes around comes around

salutations!

for the sake of secrecy, the names have been changed to suite the event. this event however is true right to the bones.

on one mysterious night. mr moqa mysterously wondered to one mysterious badminton court. mr moqa, without any reason played badminton with several of his friends.

mr moqa also seem to be puzzled where are most of them. then, mr peklah has explained to mr moqa about the well about of their friends. with the help of mr syazi, mr lah has been able to make mr moqa absolutely understand about the whereabouts of their friends.

then, without hesitation, which is a mysteriously event for mr moqa as he always need to have a reason to do something, mr moqa played badminton with MR syahmi and bro haji without excluding mr gowe and mr midi. not forgetting mr syazi who supplies almost all the racquets.

after the event of playing badminton, mr peklah mysteriously wondered off. mr lah said that he needs to have a drink. however, after a while (not exceeding one minute), mr lah has been found mysteriously lost by mr moqa and bro haji. thus begins the journey of a life time for both persona as they mysteriously trying to figure out the location of the mysterious mr lah.

alas, mr lah has been found grouping together with the rest of them. therefore, bro haji has made the mysterious leap of faith through the bushes. confidently, mr moqa has tried to reincarnate bro haji by making the same mysterious leap.

suddenly, bro haji looks perplexed and stunned. mr lah cries out from the distance. mr moqa sees the stars and feel silent bestowed upon him.

without hesitation, mr lah quickly come over and help mr moqa. mr moqa is rooted with his back to the ground. suddenly, mr moqa mysteriously remembers something that has happen to one of mr moqa's friend previously.

what happen is just the same. the first person makes the successful jump, mysteriously the second person failed miserably even though the first person has given the clues on how to make the mysterious jump.

perhaps this is what can be said as what goes around comes around. before, mr moqa watched his friend made the same thing and now he is in the thing.

the thing is, mr moqa and his friend has jatuh longkang yang sgt dalam dan bangun ngn machonye sambil wt xde pape berlaku sedangkan tgh sakit melampau. wakaka. irony isnt it.

tribute to mr moqa's friend : mr ayie! :D

p/s: mr moqa is currently licking his wounds (medicating, i mean)... yes, the names have been altered okay!