wishing upon a fallen star

i wish..

i wish that i would be a better person..

i wish that i would prioritize things right...

i wish to be someone who i always envy of...

i wish that i have something to be proud of...

i wish that i would not be the same as i am now...

i wish to be different from the person who i wanted to be different...

i wish that these bad feelings would just go away...

how i wish that these wishes would come true...

broken arrow

hye..

broken arrow is a military code name whereby the infantry unit has been cut out and they demand all air strikes possible in the operation to help them bail out.

tu je kot nk share.. xde smgt la.. lately ni, i am not that energetic.. no more that proactive.. why.. xde smgt da.. xde smgt nk wt ape2.. nk kate mls, xplak tdo or tgk muvi.. wt keje tu, wt jgk.. tp cm siput je... skit.. skit... last2 dpt jgk syap.. org late, ptut msuk gear 5 da skg ni.. tp rse cm mkin pancit plak la... haih... nk refuel, tp kt mne? sape yg sggup nk merefuel kn diri ini...
haih...
sbr je la kn.. nk wt cne da.. huhu..
nk ngs pn ade skg.. out of no reason.. haha... da la.. sentimental sbntr ye.. emosi xstabil sgt2.. tmbh ngn kesihatan n kewangan yg sgt2 xstabil n xsecure... haih.. everythg juz seem incorrect wif me rite now,...

p/s : T_T

dude

i really think something is wrong with me...

look at the time.. not that i am not sleeping but i am not even feel like to.. darn it..

i know that if i sleep then i will miss my train at 4.50 in the morning but at times, i will sleep no matter what.. but now, my eyes are not heavy...

i really hope theres nothing wrong..

btw, its a happy day for me.. i think i should put it for both of us..

its supposed to and should to.. but obligations makes it impossible to do anything and i guess that inevitable...

well, do pray for my safety on my trip to kl..

p/s : i m going home... tp xgtw sape2 pn kt umah.. mau terkejut beruk diorg..

insomnia

i have just slept for 4 hours...

i am tired and need of a very big rest...

but i cant sleep..

i cant rest..

i need to strive...

no to sleep as sleeping takes away your time..

p/s : korg yg nek kete aku, beware.. aku ngntok korg bwk ea...

big sigh

the previous post..

lots of comments n feedbacks from it.. be it in here or in personal... it draws the attention of peeps.. well, i do not write it for the sake of publicity..

if i do not do it..

1. i would not be able to complete the 1st draft of my project
2. i would still be cursing to the 'people'
3. i would probably take a swing at my rumate or anyone nearby...

i am not that extrovert usually.. but i cannot keep it in me anymore.. its one of those things that i am really pissed off... i cannot talk about it to someone else.. as my tone would seem like i am pissed off towards the people that are hearing although they are not responsible for it..

my councilor once said : ur feelings are like balloons.. the moment u decided not to let it be expressed, it will be blown into just like a balloon.. then, the more u kept it to ur self, the bigger the balloon will be.. in the end, the balloon will burst..

p/s : maaf ye...

fuck you!

i am really pissed off..

1st. do u fucking guys know what is the meaning of a fucking manners?
2nd. do u fucking guys think that u are so fucking good after doing that?
3rd. what is your fucking right to do such fucking thing to others?
4th. you fucking think that u r fucking good to do that?
5th. u fucking do that because you fucking think that u are qualified to go to heaven and others dont?
6th. do you fucking guys think that doing it was fucking good?
7th. u guys are fucking coward cause u fucking guys went straight away after doing the fucking thing.. u fucking guys dont have ur fucking balls to confront me face to fucking face...
8th. who the fuck tell u to do such thing?
9th. do u fucking guys know anyfuckingthing about human rights and how to fucking respect it?
10th. next fucking time u do that again towards me, then u will fucking get what u fucking deserves...
11th. do u fucking guys know what is bil hikmah?
12th. u fucking guys always look down on fucking others and think that u fucking guys are always right to do such fucking things that u dont fucking realise that what u r doing is fucking wrong..
13th. find another fucking way to do so as it is not FUCKING effective

p/s : fuck fuck fuck

shewolf

know about one song?

sang by shakira.. named shewolf..
besides than the irrecogniseable lyrics, i like the part where she howls like a wolf.. really mesmerizing to hear that.. theres a special aura surrounding the howls... its like something really cute.. the way shakira howls it..
auww.. with a pinch of seductiveness, the howls rang perfect to my ears.. hehe..

p/s : geli gk a bace balek bnde kt atas ni.. lalala...