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salutations..

i think most of u are aware that there are something not rite with the last post.. i do hope that i am not offending anyone else...
words are a nasty thing to play with.. i learnt that last tym.. hey guys.. please dont get me wrong k..

my frens are still my frens.. the same feelg never resides.. its just at that particular moment, i am emotionally unstable and i feel bad that tym.. pls understand me.. i donot want to lose anythg due to the lousy emotion of mine and the post that costs it all... pls..

if any of you want confirmation of anythg.. just talk to me k.. gtalk or anythg.. i am really terrified to lose all of u... pls.. that is all i want to say in this post... talk to me if any of you feels that we need to talk..

p/s: baru sedar kekuatan kata2... kerana mulut bdn binasa, kerana keyboard, org terasa!

its a start

hi..

today is a very peaceful day.. the most peaceful day i have ever encountered ever since i have returned here from my spell at the hospital ward.. hehe..

maybe because it is the ramadhan... and the nonexistence of the burdening assignment that created this atmosphere.. i like it.. hehe.. the tranquility that comes once in a year... (^_^)

its a start.. a start to let go of the past and create a better future... right..

i personally want to say happy ramadhan to everyone.. hehe..

p/s:jgn ade ponteng pose ye~

salvation

hi..

its been a while since i havent update my blog.. gladly to say that i m healthy and keep on getting healthier day by day.. hehe... btw, ever since i have come back from my looooong holiday, it has been a very2 busy period for me...

well... i am quite sad and dissappointed and shock and awe about a few things lately.... hurmm... how can i start without even making terase hati bout it?

let me say that others do not treat us like we treat them.. in this case, its what i feel about them and what i get from which i consider as unfair.. it seems like the mistakes of the past are haunting them and the best way to get rid of it is by denying my existence.. what makes it worst is that the other people that surrounds me do not have the same treatment like what i get.. it is unfair and it makes me think a lot about it... thinking what have i done wrong is the most significant thing that goes on my mind... why i am treated like this... sigh...

(the older post have been edited)

da la.. hilang mood nk tulis da.. nk g berak and syap2 nk grk.. bye!

p/s: sape mkn ikan, rase ikan ye... jgn nk rse bnde len plak..

contingency

as i am writing this, i am enjoying the highly rapid speed of the internet due to loss of people using this facility....

due to the sudden increase of the UTP's h1n1 case, then UTP has been officially closed from today 3 pm until thursday 3 pm.. :D

the end of a beginning

in the Chancellor Hall
28 July 2009
3.30 pm

tgn kiri ke depan~
ke belakang~
depan, belakang~
dan goyangkan~

as these words rings in my ears, i cant help but to burst into tears.. maybe some notice it but maybe not.. i hide my face behind the songkok while i tried so hard to wipe up the tears.. its bittersweet.. its so emotional at the time.. its so enjoyable yet so sad... with all the work and efforts put into this.. with all the memories and joy... i just wish that it lasted forever.. i fell like i have lost lots of things right after this.. what will happen is just be a happy memories not just for me but to all of the organising committees...

the tears that fall.. it meant a lot.. even when i leave high school, i dont cry... but this.. its just strike me so hard... to think that i need to depart with all of them and will not work together again.. would not be able to cheer the same thing and not be able to complain about the same problems.. its the departure that hurts me a lot.. even though none of us died but the relationship that has been created will not be the as the same again... its about the realtionship that i cried about..

how do i get better once i have had the best.. i just hope that time will stay and never moved... its the only time when i feel comfortable about me and others.. really..

i miss u guys.. i miss das.. i miss working with the das committees... i miss the exhaustion that make me sick for a day.. i miss the excitement... i miss the tommy.. i miss it all.. 25 - 28 july 2009.. will never be erased from my memory.. thank you to evryone involved in DAS 2009!

:,)

a little too late?

hello..

as i am writing this post, i have just finished watching transformers 2 revenge of the fallen...

yupp.. have just finished watching it.. believe it or not.. well, i am very2 disappointed right now.. not with the movie or anything to do with the story line, but disappointed that i am unable to watch transformers at the cinema.. instead, just being reduced to this little room with my roomate snoring already(duh, its like 4 am!)

well, its bittersweet to watch this movie.. 1st, i am very2 enthralled with this movie.. really a big big fan. ever since i know that Michael bay is directing the sequel, i have made it a must to watch the second one at a cinema.. but, what you hope for is what you never get(not always though)..

enough with the sadness.. i should be happy today! happy because i have finally watched a movie being criticized so much that most of my friends dont want to watch it but it is actually money worth it(compare with the hapless harry potter!).. its just ignites my sparks of excitement watching bumblebee and optimus fighting and wrestling with constructicons and lots.. it made my biological morphine to secretes and creates adrenaline rush! seriously(providded that one watched it with lights off and a headphone tucked inside their ears)..

also, i should be happy because i have been handpicked to be the timekeeper for the final of DAS2009! i would love to be the speaker but timekeeper is not as bad as i can get... its not something that i would like to promote but i just feel glad about it! not just that, irda would join me up there on stage next to the speaker.. really hope that she would get her health status cleared by the doctors this thursday! pasni, minum byk2 air ye!

not to forget that i am drafted into the UTP team that would be participating in the great serdang debate.. really looking forward to that! i would not want to disgrace the name of UTP.. i am drafted alongside arif amin! one of the most exciting newbie that i have met in these few years debating(arif manages to complete a seven minute speech and a minute half open speech! its not easy ok!).. i am looking forward to get the proper guidance and help from my friends and seniors in debate.. :D provided if they would like to do so.. :P

again with the DAS2009, i am now officially the usher for UKM.. kinda afraid of what might i encountered, but at the same time, excitement creeps in.. :D cant imagine what DAS2009 would be like.. hope it will be just fine! :D

also, right now, i am thinking of someone who is a dear friend of me.. long time that i have not talked to him.. hope that he still appreciates our friendship!

nevertheless, i am happy! i am excited! i dont want to think about my finance class tomorrow! pls.. can i do that? :P

to wrap things up, its really enjoying to watched transformers.. watching it has made me secretes my morphine(that ignites happiness) thus making me thinking of everything that makes me happy right now! :D

p/s : hope the happiness stays.. :D

at last

today marks the start of a new semester..

even though i have been here for about two weeks but only today that i can sense a new beginning is upon me..

before, i can only meet peoples i know at a certain places and not just around the corner (like in the bathroom or at my corridor) but now, i can do that.. it is what i have been craving for like a year.. ever since i am at foundation 1st, i have never been able to do so.. now, at last, the time has come for me..

what significance that it brings to me? it has made me feel like i have quite a number of friends actually.. when they saw me, they would nod, or raise the hand as a gesture of acknowledging i am there..

before, when i come out of my room, what greets me is the stench of several people not taking their baths for weeks or even months.. and when i went to the toilets or walk on the corridor, there would be weird looks being set upon me as if i am an alien from another world.. how would you feel, if you were isolated in your own territory..

i am glad at least i am not being treated like that anymore.. there are people whom i know and no longer the hard stench of people not taking their baths.. thank god!

although i know that i would feel like this for the rest of the semester, at least, i am thankful due to the reception that i get here..

btw, my roomate are now able to play DOTA with me.. i am glad for that too.. :')