1st post in 2012

hello all.

happy new year! 2012 is gonna be a blast.

i am still at home, not going back tonite as my mother wont allow me. so, i must struggle in the coming days for my 1st paper as a final year student in 5 days time. therefore, please be kind to me, especially my health, my emotions and my mental state. i need you guys to be non-volatile for now.

furthermore, there are some events that make me feel more like a bum. my marks for my tests are low. low because i do put a lot of efforts in it. low because i am not satisfied with my marks and i can predict myself getting a B for that subject. well, at least i try and failed. which i have done it for a lot of subjects before. haha.

nonetheless, the fire within me is still burning with desire. its just another step for more failures. #lol.

in other words, please let me put those thoughts behind me and move on.

heart, is a complex organ. it makes u live and also can make u suffer. it controls the lifeforce of ur life and if it chooses to not serve u anymore, u will die. so, u must treat ur heart with care. #metaphorical

so, eventually, 2012 looks bright. so bright that i might missed some big things in front of me through its glare. lets hope that i can stay focus and stay on the line that i am threading.

2012, please be kind. tata 2011

Management Accounting

Hello,

I am, as always, still awake. not that i cant sleep, i dont want to sleep yet. the reason? cause i got one more test to take tomorrow. and after the test, thats the end of my lectures in this semester.

now, let us see. we got writer's block, rocker's block, mental block. all of those blockades, are in me right now. my mind just slip away like that. u know the song, pixies - where is my mind. that song described exactly what i am feeling.

cause of those blocks, i cant seem to focus on my studies. its like secondary school all over again. haha.. lack of focus leads to lack of marks, eventually turns out to bad results. no, i am not going into that path again!

btw, people, lately, i have always dreamt of going back in the past. reminiscing each big steps that i took and realize how different my life would be if i took the other path. and how regretful i am to took those steps. maybe, just maybe, those are the things that haunt me right now. i feel insecure and small. i feel like i am a failure of my past!

lol. dont read it with such a sad manner. those past, are what make me who i am today. am i successful? not yet! i will be. one day. and one of the first steps is to start focusing on my test tomorrow. cause every 1% of my success, will lead to a long way.

stop thinking of my past and start focusing on the future.

Its never too late

Hello.

its been a while, i know. please dont judge me. i am just a normal human being that does not prioritize blogging in my life cause i have other things else. well, they always say that.

nonetheless, this is the ending of the new semester. remember my last posts about finishing internship? well, this one, is the end of the semester after the internship.

its torrid, fast-paced, no rest, pressured and god willing successful semester. this is the first taste of level 5 room in a trimester system with debate and all other assignments clump together and thank god that i am still alive. barely though.

this is not the first time i have stayed till 3 am. its more of the norm now for me. doing stuffs till late night, waking up next day for lecture and ended up sleeping late again the next night. i wish that i have all the strength to repel all those urges to play games, waste time and even blogging.

but as a human being with an IQ not close to brilliant, i humbly struggle to end this semester. its just the beginning though. more to come and it keeps getting tougher too.

most of the time, i dreamt of my internship places, where there are all so many friends to cheer you up when you needed. and oh, i just missed a wedding of theirs recently. i am sorry. will get you something when i start working quz. T_T

well, that is how my life has changed. that is how my life has currently evolved into. the mixture of student/employee/child/teenager/adult. so far, i am still happy to be me. :)

regards.

8 months full of changes

greetings all.

due to the lack of time and the awesome lazyness syndrome that i have, the blog has been stalled. however, to make people happy, i have decided to post something again.

as the readers might know, i am currently undergoing my internship program at SC. during those months, much have i gained and lose none. it is worthwhile of my time and my sacrifises of enduring the hour long traffic jam and the cut in pay.

SC has taught me a lot. things that i have been wanting to know... such are the etiquette of a respectable person, the joy of working life, the joy of having so many friends together with us. i would cherish those joys for forever in my life.

besides SC, i have became a coach to my school. a debating coach. in which there, i have found some of the brightest talents that would one day become someone huge in the future. i have re-ignite the passion for debate. i have make myself more serious in debate like never before. i wish that i am the same age as them as i would want to grow together with them throught thick and thin.

in the end, with SC, i have gained a stepping stone for my life.. with debate, i have gained a new found passion that i can also too succeed in the debating scene.

no pictures for now. didnt have the change to grab it. however, i will posts more pictures in the future. for now, its back to the reporting mode. i would be glad if i can finish this report within this week!

p/s: good luck to the malaysian football team! all the best!

THE STAR 13 January 2011

Pembinaan BLT plans RM10b sukuk (B1, StarBiz)

Pembinaan BLT Sdn Bhd, an entity under the Ministry of Finance Inc, is raising RM10bil worth of sukuk in order to fund the construction of police quarters and facilities under the “build, lease and transfer” (BLT) model. The BLT model, a form of private finance initiative under the broad umbrella of public-private partnerships, has been used before to fund infrastructure projects in Malaysia.

Getting a head of risk on board (B7, StarBiz)

Appointing a dedicated head of risk to serve the board of an insurer is becoming an increasingly common global practice aimed at providing assurance to the board on the quality of risk management within the firm. This would allow for an independent assessment of a company’s risk exposure without pandering to profit and loss targets, said head of local insurers.

EU weighs aid for Portugal (B8, StarBiz)

European governments are considering aid for Portugal, debt buybacks, lower interest rates on rescue loans and guarantees against excessive debt as part of a package to quell the financial crisis, according to two people with direct knowledge of the talks. The plan, which may include a loan to Portugal of about 60 billion euros (US$78bil) and purchases of outstanding Greek debt, would mark an attempt to contain a crisis that has frustrated unprecedented efforts by policy-makers to calm markets and raised questions about the health of the 17-nation euro economy.

SC In the News (THE STAR)

Zarinah: Bigger companies’ CR reporting quality has improved (B4, StarBiz)

The standard and quality of corporate responsibility (CR) reporting by the larger listed companies have improved, according to Securities Commission Chairman Tan Sri Zarinah Anwar. Zarinah, who is also chief judge of the StarBiz-ICR Malaysia Corporate Responsibility Award 2010, said CR reporting had come a long way since the CR awards was introduced in 2008 for listed companies on Bursa Malaysia.

100th post already~

moning dear readers,

what a date to get the 100th post~ i like~

the Royals Debating Championship has just ended. the seniors manage to break. CLAP CLAP.

i really2 envy them for being able to participate but no sweat, i shall join the 2011 Royals~ :D

congratz to the seniors, juniors and everyone for giving their best to the cause of the team!

i am tired right now. although my eyes cant sleep anymore.. getting used to the biological clock maybe.

right now, at my work place, i am seriously thinking back. what have i learn, for the past two years, that are implemented at this place. well, the name is already knowledge management department and i do have a major of the same name but i still not managed to see anything related to what i have studied.

to be frank, it seems like i am part of a committee of an event or club which needs some jobs to be done. that's all! you know, when you join an event or a club, all of your knowledge about academics are not largely used.

maybe later i must think of something technical.. perhaps..

well, for the 100th posts, i shall say that my brother has invited me to join fishing later this evening although i might not be going because i need to kemas2 this room here.. sigh..

haa! i got good news dear not-so-many-readers~~~

i have a car already~ under my name, and it is a viva elite exclusive edition with the colour purple-like-maroon. BLB 3679~

it is a blessing.. i m very2 fortunate to have got this car. alhamdullillah... btw, of course my mama is the one that pays for it. i just need to pay for the toll and fuel. fuh~

although the work at SC is not related to my field, not so much, but the working environment there is awesome~~ i have made many2 friends there. they all are very entertaining~ although they are very old, to my standards, but they behave like people of my age~ or the other way around though..

nonetheless, i shall cherish everything and everyone there. people there are awesome and friendly and never pushed me like i am an intern. to be frank, i dont even being treated like one. it is just that, i am the one that wants to be known as an intern.

well, like everyone always said, there are good times and bad times in life.. i just hope that the bad time is not as bad as it is..

what else? oh ya, today, my best buddy, gowe~ is getting engaged. and i cant go there. i m sorry my brother~ i promise u, your wedding, i shall come lightheartedly~ may your engagement brings happiness to my dear friend. what a date to be engaged~

oh ya, another note, i have been involved in an accident la.. very bad accident that i turned turtle for 360 degrees. the car has been a wreck. however, i am lucky that i managed to escape without any harm.. imagine, being in a car, then the car turn turtle, and managed to get back to its 4 tyres while the engine and radio are still on. i m a very lucky guy. even the doctor at the clinic also said that and i quote "Malaikat selamat kan awak ni".. the car is a total wreck. it is the most unforgettable experience ever in my life. being in an intersection of life and death.

right now, i am resting. i dont want to do heavy2 stuffs. but it is the weekend and most of my friends are longing to enjoy.. sigh.. it is a sacrifice i must made lah..

well, till next time la kot. may your days ahead are happy always.

my god, i think that my english has worsen.. serious problem..

100th post~

oh sh*t

my biggest fear is served on a plate.

after just 5 days of working in office, i am confronted with a fever, flu and headache a bit.

well, that is not my biggest fear. as of yesterday, i almost dozed off while driving back home. at a traffic light. and i am tad lucky that yesterday, the traffic is not as horrible as it used to be. i cant imagine myself in an accident because i am having an accidental nap in the car.

how to curb this? i tried putting the radio on as loud as it can and i try to wiggle myself in the chair with the rhythm of the music. it failed. i tried my best to eat something. it failed. i even dozed off while trying to dance myself at the driver seat. that is horrible!

i am not quite sure what is the source of this epidemic. i guess that it is the by-product of fever + flu + not enough sleep. today, i am wearing sweater all day long until now. i kept on drinking hot plain water = air kosong, xkn zero water kot..

i do hope that yesterday's disease is a yesterday's disease and not a plague that will haunt me for the next 8 months.

to cheer things up, i had had lunch with Tan Sri Zarinah Anwar. the chairman of SC! there was this end of year party being held for my business group (within the business group, there are numerous other dept including mine) and almost all of the executive director was there. despite those bad remarks about her and her husband, i do believe that SC would not just choose a bad person to be a chairman.

that is all for now, and FYI syahmi, i do my updates here cause when i got back home, i want to rest and not to dwell on any mental activities. lol.

till next time~

:D

The Start of Something Brilliant! I guess

12 hours of the day, maybe 13 hours, spent by doing this:

6.30 am, wake up from my routine sleep.

6.50 am, start the journey to Mont Kiara

7.45 am, arrive at SC

12.30 pm, go lunch

2.00 pm, go back to the (workdesk 1 and 1/2 hour lunch time! :D)

2.30 pm, zohor (tetap gune waktu len utk solat kan!)

4.45 pm, asar

5.15 pm, start the journey back home

7.00 pm, arrive home. (notice the time difference here?)

noteworthy statements: KL is full of cranes and lorries and bulldozers that is also using the road during peak hours. how menacing.. why dont you go to your workplace or from your workplace to your home using something else. something must be done to curb this.. sigh..

in irony, i got to listen to those morning crews from various radios more often now. they are kinda funny and always do funny stuffs.

oh ya, instead of hoping for a better internet connection, i guess i should have not expect more out of it.

thats all, gotta go back to work..

till we meet again~

if we ever meet again fellas.

well, that is not what i wanted to write here. after today, i would not be seeing most of my frens again. well, my coursemates, i would definitely see you guys again. but those debaters, best friends of mine, most of them, i would not see them again, in UTP that is.

well, why did i make such a fuss about this? because i truly appreciate the connection that i managed to get here. most of the time, i would be a lone ranger with one or two close friends. however, here, i have many many close friends. all of those i share most of my joys and laughter together. not to mention those tears that accompany us always.

it is not easy to find a close friend. i am glad that i managed to get those during my three years tenure in UTP so far. the coming years, i do hope that it would be better than this. i've learnt a lot of new things, gather valuable experiences. most of it all, i get to taste the true meaning of friendship.

we are separated, but we shall never let our bond disappears away.

to recap, this semester starts well. with me spending my time with syahmi and azmidi. but in the middle, drama starts to unfold. lack of sleep, tears flying here and there, sadness creeps in. but we managed it through nonetheless. there were the tiny fights between syafiq and wadi and rahman. and not to forget the quarrels with maria as well. birthdays that we celebrated. tambun with debaters and the late ahmed. i just sometimes cant believe myself. how could so many things happen in a very short time.

so many things happen through the years. i just can say it all here. i just want to show how much i really appreciate every single thing about it and how i will always cherish it. for the rest of my life.

there will always be someone that i would rather look forward to meet in the next 10 months. that would be you-know-who. i will try my best to come regularly to UTP. i want to show to her that those glimpses are only a glitch that bears no significant issue. i want to give her what she deserve after all of the things that she had done for me. i will be putting you in my top lists. dont you worry about that my dear. i will.

to all my batch mates jan 08, we will always be friends. no matter what.

with that, i hereby end the UTP session of this blog for the next 10 months.

thank you.

the aftermath

in less than 9 hours, i would be sitting in my last examination paper for the semester.

to glimpse into the future, in one week time, i would be sitting in my office desk. for the first time ever in my life, i would be granted my own office cubicle (that is if my company do uses cubicle).

in more or less than a month time, we would be ending the year 2010 already. in more or less than a month, christmast.

now, i am being bugged by a minor probs in my pc. i cant seem to play longer than 10 minutes or else, the pc would shut down by itself. that i believe delivers a major blow to my life! how can i play games for 10 minutes? the screen would just go blank, the sounds would be turned off and there would be no more control to it. ctrl+alt+del isnt helping. without the blue screen warning as well. but the irony is, all the fans would still be spinning around, mocking me.

my solution, wait till my examinations are over, i am going to bring home my precious and discover the problems there. there is nothing that i can do now. face it, my pc is one of my most precious assets due to its data that resides within it and the amount of time and effort that i have put into it to just bring it to my life. hence, i must to something to protect it from harm.

pc problems aside, it would be daunting to be sitting in an office cubicle. i just cant imagine it. like the first time that i enrol in UTP or i enrol in my SMAPK. there are a lot of emotions going through me at this time. the sadness of leaving the comfort zone in the name of utpians and to venture out to a company alone, all by myself. i do hope that i would found someone better there as i always do so~ :P

maybe, i might be able to update my blog daily. that is one possibility~ although i doubt that the amount of readers would increase drastically or even increase. i mean, to be frank, i seriously dont think that someone or something is even reading this blog. well, dont be offended. i know the status of a miscellaneous blogger that feels his stories are worth it to be spent on.

nonetheless, i would still be writing here, i told you before, the blog is one of my assets to deliver my feelings to the public (the internet is huge people~). i will strive to do so.

btw, for my pc probs, if anyone have any suggestions about how to fix it, feel free to share it with me via any means possible. i would seriously appreciate it~

till then guys, i need to study. one last push for glory~

persevere

perseverance is one of the most toughest things to do.

to be motivated through out. the whole idea itself is something daunting to do.

admit it, one always be motivated, hyped, pumped, in it, whatever you want to call it, in the beginning stages only. you have your goals, your aim, your target. everything is there. in the middle of it all, just falters down as time wears one out. it is the same routine over and over again is what exactly makes one feels demotivated and bored.

well, basically, i am kinda demotivated for two things now, fitness and also my studies (obviously). the whole idea of doing the same thing over and over again with very little effect is so damn tedious. i mean, face it, especially during my workouts, i can only see very little visible effect. my stomach is still flabby. nothing almost changes and that sucks.

for my studies, sometimes i do feel so damn tired of all of this. i want to play games, watch movies, not sitting under constant pressure all the time. not being able to procastinate whenever i wanted. not being feel like there is one chain tying my freedom. that is stress my dear readers. i am totally stressed out with it.

but, in the end, i know what i want. i know how i am going to get it. i know why i want it. i want a shaped body cause i want to prove to myself that i will never ever stay flabby all the time. i can get atleast a lean stomach. i want to get good grades cause i know the benefits of it in the future. the current cgpa is totally not enough to land me a decent job. i need to do more as i want to get a salary.

i have my targets and at times, i feel that it is unreachable but i want it and i never feel that i want it badly. hope that i can lasts that for a while. two more days. two more days to 10 care free months from assignments, tests and final exams. i must make an impact in these two days.

to all of those who have finished their exams, this might be a time to get me a merchandise or whatever cause probably, i wont be seeing you guys ever again!

with that, see you guys later~

Post AidilAdha

this is in the middle of the examination week. i have just completed one paper out of five. four more to go starting this monday.

everybody is stressed up. no one likes this atmosphere in UTP. people are sleeping late, cursing at those lengthy lecture slides and books. filling the library from morning till late night.

suddenly, i realized that i only have one more week left. one more week before i will embark on a 10 months hiatus that will see me venture into a new environment.

am i ready for it? do i have what it takes to be there? what if things goes wrong? those questions started to take away my focus in studying.

face it, in a week's time, i will be ending this semester and started to see the life of a working adults. FYI, i am just 20 years old. i shouldn't be working on a daily basis at an office. god, time really flies. now i feel afraid of the new environment. what if i made a mess in my internship?

btw, i wont be seeing most of my friends and teammates anymore. after my internship program, they would be leaving for their internship already until the end of my ungrad studies. now, that is more depressing. not able to see them anymore due to this is more depressing. its gonna be a very long time until i met them again, that is, if god granted us the will to be met. i dont like it.

if the separation lasts like one year, it is ok. but no more seeing each other, that is tough. very2 tough.

Goodbye My Lover

Did i disappoint you or let you down?

Should i be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

cause i saw the end before we'd begun

yes i saw you were blinded and i knew i had won

so i took what's mine by eternal right

took your soul out into the night

it may be over but it wont stop there

i am here for you if you'd only care

you touched my heart, you touched my soul

you changed my life and all my goals

and love is blind and that i knew when

my heart was blinded by you

i've kissed your lips and held your hand

shared your dreams and shared your bed

i know you well, i know your smell

i've been addicted to you

Goodbye my lover

Goodbye my friend

you have been the one

you have been the one for me

i am a dreamer and when i wake

you cant break my spirit - its my dreams you take

and as you move on, remember me

remember us and all we used to be

i've seen you cry, i've seen you smile

i've watched you sleeping for a while

i'd be the father of your child

i'd spend a lifetime with you

i know your fears and you know mine

we've had our doubts but now we're fine

and i love you, i swear thats true

i cannot live without you

and i still hold your hand in mine

in mine when i'm asleep

and i will bear my soul in time

when i'm kneeling at your feet

for all my close friends, teammates and my special one.

till we meet again fellas.

good luck in your lives.

Competitions

some people are just competitive in nature. well, i dont blame them. it is not even a bad trait.

however, on the contrary, i am not as competitive as most people are. living in a family where all your siblings makes you look demure is so not encouraging for your self esteem. i am been living all my life with the perception that my brothers and sisters are all cool and always ahead of me. well of course they are ahead of me by minimum of 5 years.

the point is that sometimes i really do hate competitions. especially in things that i really dont see any reason of competing behind it. things such as who is more good looking, more smarter than the other guys or even who's got more money in the bank. those things i believe is not fair sometimes for everyone to participate in and things that arent fair are totally not my groove.

i mean, it is something that is more subjective than other things. your looks, you can choose it at the first place! plus, it is something subjective, i might call miley cyrus as the most sexiest girl ever and some might want to say selena gomez is the one! no one wins in these types of competition.

as for the brains competitions, i agree that it might lead to something good such as your grades are increased and everything but personally, that type of competitions are just for nerds. face it, bill gates do not even need a degree to start off with his microsoft business, and mark zuhkerberg (sorry if i dont know how to spell his name) got lawsuits from his colleagues when he 1s started fb because he is such an asshole(this i got from the movie the social network).

the point is, being the smartest is not everything fellas! you can be the smartest and yet you might not get anything that you wanted. competitions are good sometimes but i believe that under some circumstances, it is going to breed more hatred than any benefits.

perhaps this is not true for everyone. it might be true for me. dont get me wrong, i am a competitive person. just that i am competitive for the things that i believe should have been a competition amongst people.

i am tired actually. can i take the day off from studying? maybe yes. thank you!

Study Week Semester July 2010 aka 90th post

to study something, it is very hard to do.

i mean face it, in my school days, i find it hard to cope with add maths and Bahasa Arab Tinggi(BAT). i always failed in these two subjects. to say that i didnt study these two subjects is preposterous. i did study. however the problem lies in the justification on why must i study these subjects.

to be honest, i dont see any reasoning behind the add maths and BAT being taught to every student. me, for example, i dont want to take engineering or anything and i dont want to go to the middle east to further my studies, hence, why must i learn these subjects? when i asked my teachers said that we will be using it, it is confirmed that we will use it later in my life etc. that is not the point, the point is until now, i still failed to see the reasoning behind me being forced to study these two subjects for two years.

now, the interesting part is, in university, i failed to find any subject that is of a matter not using it later. i mean, all the subjects, have the possibilities of usage in my working years. hence, i really do feel like studying those subjects cause i know that these subjects are not just merely a quota that i must fill in.

well, that has never made my grades any better, but anyhow, the questions of why must we learn this stuff never occurred in my university days. although to be honest, there are sometimes where i do feel like cursing those hard technical subjects and that particular questions really do fill in the mind space.

what matters now is that i must stay focused and determined to try my best, cause even if i failed, i knew that i have give my best and i am content with it.

hence, the struggle begins.

til then bloggie, i got some lecture notes to attend to~~ :D

unless we recognize that the wealth of many employees consists of their education and skills, these valuable assets will not be protected as well as traditional forms of property - Charles A. Reich.

Moving On

it was a topsy turvy period of time for me. trying to cope with a couple of loses.

those loses are grief and always will have an impact on me.

i held on to one phrase, God knows the plan for everyone and only He knows the best for us.

not just that i believe that God has planned for me to embrace death of my colleagues in the early days of my life (i'm 20, not 60), i believe that God has reasons to take away his precious and bright life as well.

i need to move on. and my resolutions are:

revive back the blog that i have left deserted. its one of those ways of me saying what i always wanted to say. expressing alone is fruitfull for me. i'll post as many things as i can in this blog of mine.

change the url of this blog. no more of the stupid alteringalterations(yes, i admit, it is stupid). it would give me a fresh feeling about this blog. the url is therealmukhariz, not because i am a narcissistic person but it is because the url mukhariz is taken already by a kid! and that is not even his real name! what a bomb!

no more of secrecy. i mean, i always put layers among layers in my writings that in the end, i cant even recall what i have wrote before. i wont put that anymore, i would try to be straight to the point. maybe one layer of secrecy is enough. ;)

why changes that change us: simple, i just want to share the changes in my life and hopefully give impact to those who experience almost the same changes that i went through. the tagline before this is lame and not objective. now, i will write those of my changes rather than writing to change the world. kids stuff.

i have to admit, since writing about my personal dwellings in my blog, i can move on easier. i am not such a story teller person. i need a medium to express those things. in the end, the blog is the easiest way of doing so.

well, i guess thats a lot of resolutions. i hope that one day, i will benefit from all of the minutes spent of this blog. i have to sign out, got a chapter to read before i sleep. have a nice day everyone.

p/s: please refer to me as mukhariz and not moqa or mocca or paroi or paroy. all those, are not me. just a nickname. thanks.

Al-Fatihah

it started out during try outs for novice

that is the 1st time i met him. he was brimming with confidence. it was, for the 1st time that i recalled, an international student wants to join the debate team. although i dont really liked him at 1st glance, but then i just say, hell with it. i want to focus on this competition.

during novice championships

what i thought is arrogance, it turns out to be self confidence. he is someone that will not respect people unless we show it to him that it is worth it to do so. i respected that. we created some bond there. i can feel that he is somehow respects me and i respects him too. who has the guts to join the all local debate team with just him the one from his country. he makes an entrance at this competition. winning 5 rounds, losing once.

when the result of the finals is announced, he was the one that leaps the highest, shout the loudest and hug the firmest. he was the one that filled with joy. he smiled like he was the one that won it. i was happy to see him that way. it was like he was actually a part of us. a locals who just have been living outside of the country. i am gonna miss that smile.

wednesday, 3rd of november 2010

ijat text me. dude, you wanna go mamak? i said ok. then we go out, with nabil and him tagging along. we had such a conversation there. talking about ijat's sis wedding and how he will bullshit his family by saying that he is one of the ambassadors' son. talking about the formality of the attire. talking about tasneem, habib and khadijah. we talked about past competitions too. but there is one thing that i can remembered the most. that time, we said we were leaving. then he suddenly said no, wait for another 30 minutes! with his voice and intonation. i was surprised. in my head, what would he wanted to talk for another 30 minutes. as they always say, those who will go, somehow knows about it. we didnt left the mamak. we stayed and talked more. i can still remember his face. he really looks like he wants to stay there with us. wants to spent a bit more time with the both of us. we talked and talked like buddies from our school days. it was as if he knows that he wont be seeing both of us again.

that was the last time i saw him alive. the next time i saw him, he was already pale and cold. that was just the saturday of the week. i am shocked. this is the 1st time i lost a dear friend of mine. i always have a spot for ahmed. he was someone special. right now, there are a lot of memories of us together that keeps on playing in my mind. i wanted to save it. keep it. lock it. never to throw it away. all of my debate competitions have been with him. now, it feels like i lost a teammate. no more of those terrorists jokes. nasty talks about girls. most of all, no more of those laugh and joy that we always share together. those tears and anger thats been shed.

you are someone with such a good future ahmed. i know your ambitions and plans for the future and i was actually really looking forward to see you achieve your ambitions. i was really hoping that you will get what you want. i wanted to see you be the president of everything that you entered. in the end, god loves you more. He has better plans for you, ahmed.

so long ahmed ali. may your soul rest in peace. Al-fatihah untuk arwah.

crappy post

there are times that one will always try to sees the impossible.

like me, trying to get a six pack.

or me trying to ask a blonde girl out on a date.

the irony in that is, people will always dream of the inevitable.

people will always try to get it no matter what.

that is human being at its most optimistic.

i m now on a diet, with some several 'workouts' everyday and then.

i do hope that it is worth while.

people are not afraid to change but they are always afraid of the pain of change.

i hope that i am managed to get rid of that feeling!

keep it going mukhariz.

the journey is long down the road.

stay healthy, stay focused, stay determined.

raya 2010

hello.

selamat hr raya..

hehe..

its been a long holiday for me..

i was back in perlis starting from monday of the holiday n back at my home the following monday.

a week of malaysian tv has made me realize the funny side of malaysian advertisement..

they are damn funny n hilarious.. such rhymes like ke..ropok moni! and boom! meletup! still makes me smile.. u know the ads.. i dunno that malaysian directors have such entertaining mind...

nonetheless, the holiday has made me someone who appreciates internet and astro. a week without them is almost like a week in OBML... haha..

anyway, selamat hari raya! i seek forgiveness from the past to the future.. (sng, xpyh nk mintak maaf byk2 kali. XD)

later then..

happy holidays..

:D

post IDC

hey. its august and its that time of the year again! ramadhan!

its always an honour to meet with it again...

iskandar debating in utm..

the competition that showed me humility and self respect..

it clearly defined the skies where they lived in and the downgraded earth where i am right now

sounds demoralising but this is my promise..

i shall not be forever in the grounds of the earth, shackled by my own inferiority complex..

i will strive to rose as high as the sun! and shines upon those on earth to encourage them not to stay there anymore..

that is my desire and i will do it against all odds...

sacrifise is inevitable..

hence, i vowed to rise and not drop dead for a long time.. as time is never my ally...

p/s: ramadhan is here.. happy fasting everyone... another crappy things from me..

post OBML

hi guys.. there is sooooooooooo much going on after my latest post...

1) i got the latest norton internet security!!! F**k Y*u Kaspersky!!!! haha... XD

2) i have bought most of my stuffs to come back to utp!!! =.="

3) i m already at utp!!! ==

4) b4 i come to utp, i have joined the PETRONAS 06/2010 OBML program at Lumut!!!! =D

5) my hair is still long!!! wtf?

6) i have decided not to bring my car to utp!!! (clap2)

7) baru je donload lagu mizz nina!!! yeay!

8) my result for semester jan 2010 da kuar!!! sob3....

i think dats about all..

plus with other hyperbole stuffs...

btw, i am in a jiggly mood right now.. jiggly in a good way..

felt just like being reborned.. cehh..

i dont care what has happened last semester... lets take a good look at this semester!!

plus, now i want to keep my hair as long as possible!! screw u pak guard!!!! :D

i think dats all for the nite.. nite~~