1st post in 2012

hello all.

happy new year! 2012 is gonna be a blast.

i am still at home, not going back tonite as my mother wont allow me. so, i must struggle in the coming days for my 1st paper as a final year student in 5 days time. therefore, please be kind to me, especially my health, my emotions and my mental state. i need you guys to be non-volatile for now.

furthermore, there are some events that make me feel more like a bum. my marks for my tests are low. low because i do put a lot of efforts in it. low because i am not satisfied with my marks and i can predict myself getting a B for that subject. well, at least i try and failed. which i have done it for a lot of subjects before. haha.

nonetheless, the fire within me is still burning with desire. its just another step for more failures. #lol.

in other words, please let me put those thoughts behind me and move on.

heart, is a complex organ. it makes u live and also can make u suffer. it controls the lifeforce of ur life and if it chooses to not serve u anymore, u will die. so, u must treat ur heart with care. #metaphorical

so, eventually, 2012 looks bright. so bright that i might missed some big things in front of me through its glare. lets hope that i can stay focus and stay on the line that i am threading.

2012, please be kind. tata 2011

Management Accounting

Hello,

I am, as always, still awake. not that i cant sleep, i dont want to sleep yet. the reason? cause i got one more test to take tomorrow. and after the test, thats the end of my lectures in this semester.

now, let us see. we got writer's block, rocker's block, mental block. all of those blockades, are in me right now. my mind just slip away like that. u know the song, pixies - where is my mind. that song described exactly what i am feeling.

cause of those blocks, i cant seem to focus on my studies. its like secondary school all over again. haha.. lack of focus leads to lack of marks, eventually turns out to bad results. no, i am not going into that path again!

btw, people, lately, i have always dreamt of going back in the past. reminiscing each big steps that i took and realize how different my life would be if i took the other path. and how regretful i am to took those steps. maybe, just maybe, those are the things that haunt me right now. i feel insecure and small. i feel like i am a failure of my past!

lol. dont read it with such a sad manner. those past, are what make me who i am today. am i successful? not yet! i will be. one day. and one of the first steps is to start focusing on my test tomorrow. cause every 1% of my success, will lead to a long way.

stop thinking of my past and start focusing on the future.

Its never too late

Hello.

its been a while, i know. please dont judge me. i am just a normal human being that does not prioritize blogging in my life cause i have other things else. well, they always say that.

nonetheless, this is the ending of the new semester. remember my last posts about finishing internship? well, this one, is the end of the semester after the internship.

its torrid, fast-paced, no rest, pressured and god willing successful semester. this is the first taste of level 5 room in a trimester system with debate and all other assignments clump together and thank god that i am still alive. barely though.

this is not the first time i have stayed till 3 am. its more of the norm now for me. doing stuffs till late night, waking up next day for lecture and ended up sleeping late again the next night. i wish that i have all the strength to repel all those urges to play games, waste time and even blogging.

but as a human being with an IQ not close to brilliant, i humbly struggle to end this semester. its just the beginning though. more to come and it keeps getting tougher too.

most of the time, i dreamt of my internship places, where there are all so many friends to cheer you up when you needed. and oh, i just missed a wedding of theirs recently. i am sorry. will get you something when i start working quz. T_T

well, that is how my life has changed. that is how my life has currently evolved into. the mixture of student/employee/child/teenager/adult. so far, i am still happy to be me. :)

regards.

8 months full of changes

greetings all.

due to the lack of time and the awesome lazyness syndrome that i have, the blog has been stalled. however, to make people happy, i have decided to post something again.

as the readers might know, i am currently undergoing my internship program at SC. during those months, much have i gained and lose none. it is worthwhile of my time and my sacrifises of enduring the hour long traffic jam and the cut in pay.

SC has taught me a lot. things that i have been wanting to know... such are the etiquette of a respectable person, the joy of working life, the joy of having so many friends together with us. i would cherish those joys for forever in my life.

besides SC, i have became a coach to my school. a debating coach. in which there, i have found some of the brightest talents that would one day become someone huge in the future. i have re-ignite the passion for debate. i have make myself more serious in debate like never before. i wish that i am the same age as them as i would want to grow together with them throught thick and thin.

in the end, with SC, i have gained a stepping stone for my life.. with debate, i have gained a new found passion that i can also too succeed in the debating scene.

no pictures for now. didnt have the change to grab it. however, i will posts more pictures in the future. for now, its back to the reporting mode. i would be glad if i can finish this report within this week!

p/s: good luck to the malaysian football team! all the best!

THE STAR 13 January 2011

Pembinaan BLT plans RM10b sukuk (B1, StarBiz)

Pembinaan BLT Sdn Bhd, an entity under the Ministry of Finance Inc, is raising RM10bil worth of sukuk in order to fund the construction of police quarters and facilities under the “build, lease and transfer” (BLT) model. The BLT model, a form of private finance initiative under the broad umbrella of public-private partnerships, has been used before to fund infrastructure projects in Malaysia.

Getting a head of risk on board (B7, StarBiz)

Appointing a dedicated head of risk to serve the board of an insurer is becoming an increasingly common global practice aimed at providing assurance to the board on the quality of risk management within the firm. This would allow for an independent assessment of a company’s risk exposure without pandering to profit and loss targets, said head of local insurers.

EU weighs aid for Portugal (B8, StarBiz)

European governments are considering aid for Portugal, debt buybacks, lower interest rates on rescue loans and guarantees against excessive debt as part of a package to quell the financial crisis, according to two people with direct knowledge of the talks. The plan, which may include a loan to Portugal of about 60 billion euros (US$78bil) and purchases of outstanding Greek debt, would mark an attempt to contain a crisis that has frustrated unprecedented efforts by policy-makers to calm markets and raised questions about the health of the 17-nation euro economy.

SC In the News (THE STAR)

Zarinah: Bigger companies’ CR reporting quality has improved (B4, StarBiz)

The standard and quality of corporate responsibility (CR) reporting by the larger listed companies have improved, according to Securities Commission Chairman Tan Sri Zarinah Anwar. Zarinah, who is also chief judge of the StarBiz-ICR Malaysia Corporate Responsibility Award 2010, said CR reporting had come a long way since the CR awards was introduced in 2008 for listed companies on Bursa Malaysia.

100th post already~

moning dear readers,

what a date to get the 100th post~ i like~

the Royals Debating Championship has just ended. the seniors manage to break. CLAP CLAP.

i really2 envy them for being able to participate but no sweat, i shall join the 2011 Royals~ :D

congratz to the seniors, juniors and everyone for giving their best to the cause of the team!

i am tired right now. although my eyes cant sleep anymore.. getting used to the biological clock maybe.

right now, at my work place, i am seriously thinking back. what have i learn, for the past two years, that are implemented at this place. well, the name is already knowledge management department and i do have a major of the same name but i still not managed to see anything related to what i have studied.

to be frank, it seems like i am part of a committee of an event or club which needs some jobs to be done. that's all! you know, when you join an event or a club, all of your knowledge about academics are not largely used.

maybe later i must think of something technical.. perhaps..

well, for the 100th posts, i shall say that my brother has invited me to join fishing later this evening although i might not be going because i need to kemas2 this room here.. sigh..

haa! i got good news dear not-so-many-readers~~~

i have a car already~ under my name, and it is a viva elite exclusive edition with the colour purple-like-maroon. BLB 3679~

it is a blessing.. i m very2 fortunate to have got this car. alhamdullillah... btw, of course my mama is the one that pays for it. i just need to pay for the toll and fuel. fuh~

although the work at SC is not related to my field, not so much, but the working environment there is awesome~~ i have made many2 friends there. they all are very entertaining~ although they are very old, to my standards, but they behave like people of my age~ or the other way around though..

nonetheless, i shall cherish everything and everyone there. people there are awesome and friendly and never pushed me like i am an intern. to be frank, i dont even being treated like one. it is just that, i am the one that wants to be known as an intern.

well, like everyone always said, there are good times and bad times in life.. i just hope that the bad time is not as bad as it is..

what else? oh ya, today, my best buddy, gowe~ is getting engaged. and i cant go there. i m sorry my brother~ i promise u, your wedding, i shall come lightheartedly~ may your engagement brings happiness to my dear friend. what a date to be engaged~

oh ya, another note, i have been involved in an accident la.. very bad accident that i turned turtle for 360 degrees. the car has been a wreck. however, i am lucky that i managed to escape without any harm.. imagine, being in a car, then the car turn turtle, and managed to get back to its 4 tyres while the engine and radio are still on. i m a very lucky guy. even the doctor at the clinic also said that and i quote "Malaikat selamat kan awak ni".. the car is a total wreck. it is the most unforgettable experience ever in my life. being in an intersection of life and death.

right now, i am resting. i dont want to do heavy2 stuffs. but it is the weekend and most of my friends are longing to enjoy.. sigh.. it is a sacrifice i must made lah..

well, till next time la kot. may your days ahead are happy always.

my god, i think that my english has worsen.. serious problem..

100th post~

oh sh*t

my biggest fear is served on a plate.

after just 5 days of working in office, i am confronted with a fever, flu and headache a bit.

well, that is not my biggest fear. as of yesterday, i almost dozed off while driving back home. at a traffic light. and i am tad lucky that yesterday, the traffic is not as horrible as it used to be. i cant imagine myself in an accident because i am having an accidental nap in the car.

how to curb this? i tried putting the radio on as loud as it can and i try to wiggle myself in the chair with the rhythm of the music. it failed. i tried my best to eat something. it failed. i even dozed off while trying to dance myself at the driver seat. that is horrible!

i am not quite sure what is the source of this epidemic. i guess that it is the by-product of fever + flu + not enough sleep. today, i am wearing sweater all day long until now. i kept on drinking hot plain water = air kosong, xkn zero water kot..

i do hope that yesterday's disease is a yesterday's disease and not a plague that will haunt me for the next 8 months.

to cheer things up, i had had lunch with Tan Sri Zarinah Anwar. the chairman of SC! there was this end of year party being held for my business group (within the business group, there are numerous other dept including mine) and almost all of the executive director was there. despite those bad remarks about her and her husband, i do believe that SC would not just choose a bad person to be a chairman.

that is all for now, and FYI syahmi, i do my updates here cause when i got back home, i want to rest and not to dwell on any mental activities. lol.

till next time~

:D